mom asked me to solat istiharah to confirm my choice. personally i solat istiharah to ask Allah to show me the right path from now on, n solat hajat to ask Allah to open my mom's heart so dat she'll be able to accept Darling Da as she is n give her fullest blessing of our relationship.
i was dressed in my newly-bought G2000 black trousers n black G2000 long-sleeved shirt given by Darling Da. as i looked at myself in the mirror, i was like "Whoa..." to the extent dat when my mom was at a biscuit shop, she tot the person standing next to her was another customer, coz she went there first, i followed later to provide her umbrella. hmmm... i intend to slowly change my wardrobe to such clothings, a mixture of short n long sleeve ones. but cant buy everything at one go ah.. mebe 1 trousers a mth mebe.. rest of the money for my marriage preps :)
mom had the cheeck to tease me while in the car. as she stepped into it in the morning, she commented how smart i was. she was going "waaah, so smart ah? going where eh? like want to go see mother in law ah!" hmmm i took dat as a positive start to a new beginning. but then i asked dad if mom said anything last night. she asked dad to solat istiharah too, n she was worried if i would have saved enuff money for marriage by then.
frankly, money will never be enuff when it comes to saving.. all i can do is to save up enuff for wedding n all, then start saving again for a new family of me n Darling Da. mebe a few yrs later, a new member of the family? ;)
hmm.. we'll see eh.
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broke the news to my mom while on the way to fetch my dad from work. we were from Hjh Maimunah eating place. i felt like having numerous butterflies in my stomach. my heart was saying the words, but my mouth didnt move a single bit. finally i gathered all the courage n told her abt my Darling Da when we were nearing the bukit merah AYE exit.
first response from her was, "is she single?". then came "would u have the money by then?". next were "is she Javanese? where is she staying? how many siblings does she have? how old is her mother?...."
i believe Allah has helped me pave my way for the future. Mom asked me to solat istiharah, n if she's the one, then we'll "masuk minang". i asked mom, "dont u want to meet her first if my prayers turn out true?" she said ok.
Alhamdulillah, i thank Allah Almighty for allowing me to convey my thoughts n intention to my mom without any misunderstanding n arguments. may Allah help me n Darling Da go thru dis crucial moments as we work towards marriage InsyaAllah.
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i finally told my dad while fetching him from work dis evening. i asked.
me: "ayah, did mom ask abt huda?"
dad: "mom asked if the pic she saw on the pc screen dat day was hers."
me: "when was dat? few days ago?"
dad: "i think so ah."
me: "ayah, u think mom's ready to be introduced to her?"
dad: "u serious wif huda?"
me: "ya, we actually started planning far, so i tot before we move on further it'll be good to intro her to mom."
dad: "u have to properly introduce mom to huda. tell her u like her, n u want mom to see her first.... to ayah, i have no objection. its u who's getting married to huda, not me. there's no point if i like but u dont like, or u like but i dont like. as long as u know she's the right one for u, im ok wif it."
me:" ya dats y im planning on dis introduction."
our conversation stopped there as we reached the house door. will see wat will happen after my parents come back from visiting my ex-gf's house to see her parents going to Mecca dis yr. ya, mom wanted to still go becoz she felt indebted over the monetary contribution they gave when my parents went to Mecca last 2 yrs ago, n oso when they visited my dad in the hospital last may. sigh... hope for the best. i cant bring myself to seeing them, coz i felt ashamed, for giving them so much hope in me marrying their daughter, only to have dat hope crash down n break to pieces... i wish my parents the best in meeting them. hope nothing was discussed abt me n my ex when they were in the house later.
for me, i'll hang around at Bik Odah's place, n wait for their call to fetch them back.
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she touched my arm n said, "mie, mak mintak maaf kalau mak offend kau". we were driving to woodlands to help my mom's best friend, cik som, wif her sis's daughter's wedding. i was supposed to drive the bride to ROMM but apparently an uncle of hers had driven her there. its fated by Allah we didnt drive her coz we helped cik som carry the ordered food from the cook's house to the bride's place.
when my mom apologised, i was still mad. i just replied, "its ok". then she said she was sorry for being over-concerned. then watever she said then on i didnt catch, coz i knew she would say something dat might hurt me more. biasalah, mom usually has the last words, though they may apologise but they still want their opinion heard n put to stand.
now dat its been abt 2 days since the apology, n after listening to my darling Da, i do feel a bit sad for my mom. here she is trying to be the best mother for me, n we had to go thru dis misunderstanding. hmm, anger n syaitan's persuasion has got the better of my logic reasoning i guess. i pray to Allah so dat He could grant me patience n perseverence so dat me n Darling Da will be able to go thru dis wif full blessing from both parents, insyaAllah.
in the meantime, planning is still going on. hmm, mebe later when i meet my Darling Da we can come out wif some foundation to the plans?
see ya later, Da. *muuacks*
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today is relek day.. no agenda in particular except for Ustaz Fahrurazi class later tonight. i can't wait to start school.. so dat my schedule will be bz again. n i dont have to stay home dat often! ;) n at least i'll get to see my darling da at least once a wk oso..
enjoy ur day today folks..
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My sis, Sulastri n Leo McCormick. the younger daughter is Saemah Bethany McCormick. on the right is Kartika Stephanie McCormick. Pic passed to us in 2000. 
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finally mom has shown her true colours, n dat means she still hasnt changed her mindset, never ever in her lifetime i guess. sorry folks, there'll be no pleasant surprises abt me telling my mom abt my darling Da.
i fetched my dad wif Da yesterday coz i wouldnt have time to send her home n fetch my dad at the same time. Dad looked neutral when he saw the only passenger.. his colleague smiled.. both were happy to see Da, i know. but wat i didnt know was dat my mom was unhappy abt it. i trust my dad didnt tell her but when i reached home, she kinda attacked me wif words saying "sape tumpang kereta kau?" i brushed it aside n said it was a friend. n she blurted the same words, "jgn ade kawan mie, kau blm cukup duit.." i left both my parents alone n returned to my past solitude life at home..
it was pleasant to have my dad asking abt Da Darling while we were heading towards the car dis morning as i sent him to work. got to tell him where she's working n wat she does. conversation was discontinued as i went up the multi-storey car park to get the car myself. hmm, typical dad, will just ask the necessary n short qsns... hmm, im prepared for more of his qsns some other time..
i kept myself occupied cleaning the my entire room.. i have not been able to see the top of my study table, even the floor tiles too.. ive been throwing anything and everything on the floor n the study table top ever since raye started. then mom had to ask again... dis time she claimed it was intuition from Allah dat told her i was dating, dat she didnt even have to ask dad for info. i was disgusted, does she have to brag over her mother's premunition thingy? does dat make her such a pious person? it made me understand further why my sister left the house n ran away 9 yrs ago. i know i cant do dat, wat a "anak derhaka" i'll be. so i decided to shut my hearing n went on wif my spring cleaning. didnt even have time to rest, coz i didnt have the mood to. i ate just for the sake of eating.
but one thing for sure, all plans have to be changed. n i cant wait to implement them. details cant be revealed yet coz its not been finalised. but i'll definitely carry it out.
i pity my Darling Da, for having to go thru dis. i tot after my ex-girlfriend episode wif my mom, history wont repeat. i was truly wrong.. i think my dad's totally wrong abt the positive changes in my mom. IM SORRY, DA... SORRY DAT U HAVE TO GO THRU DIS WIF ME, but i promise i wont let my mom do anything to u, or to us dat will separate us. insyaAllah, we'll get thru dis by end of 2005.
in the meantime, its back to the planning stages.. hope to be able to settle things more or less by end dis week.
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check out my new pic wif my darling Da.. took it dis afternoon... i think we looked great!! any comments? *wink*
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it's nice to know there r ppl looking forward to reading ur written material, especially when it comes from someone ordinary! :) so here it is..
i've just got back from a 3-day holiday to Melaka. it was my first trip there, n it was soo last minute by my parents coz i woke up on sunday morning to my mother's voice asking if i would like to go Melaka dat day.. i was like WAT??? i tot we planned to go on MONDAY? n she had to ask me when i just woken up.. n im not in the mood for decision making whenever i just got up, so i hope my deary other half would know when not to ask me abt crucial decision making! *wink* Caaayyaang Da!
oh ok.. back to my story, so it was decided, we left singapore at abt 4pm after my parents went to 2 wedding invitations. we dropped by at my aunts place to pick my cousin up. his dad passed away while he's still a baby, his mom not too healthy to go n has to take care of the house, his siblings all much older than him, 3 out of 4 oredi married n he's just 15 yrs old. so we tagged him along.
the best part was dat we hadn't booked any hotel rooms.. like wat malays would say, "main terjun botol". i soon found out dat my mom wanted to go on Sunday coz my "bruneian" uncle had oredi reached there, n i know he's not good at driving around. his sense of direction had somehow deteriorated, n his eldest son, oso 15 yrs old, can't be depended on directions. only his wife's quite ok wif directions. so here i was heading to Melaka, meeting them up at Air Keroh toll. by the time we reached there, it was oredi maghrib, n fortunately my uncle got 3 rooms at Air Keroh Country Resort at mini malaysia, just less than 5 mins from the toll booth.
the hotel was.. wat can i say, not dat comfortable to stay ah. the spring mattress felt as if it could give way any time from then, n the aircon was making a lot of noise. i took out the filter to find a thick layer of dust on it, so i washed them in the toilet. as i was putting the filters back, i saw the aircon cooling coil covered in fungus n dirt.. eeewwww!! no wonder it smelt bad! well, being an ex-soldier, i didnt mind the conditions ah, pity my mom coz she really felt sooo uncomfortable..
we decided to find another place to stay the next morning.. n i managed to get a 2-room apartment n a 1-room apartment at Century Mahkota Hotel, well-known by Singaporeans holidaying to Melaka. it turned out when i asked my uncle to call this hotel while we were on the highway, he only asked for 3-room apartment since i didnt ask him to ask for 2 or 1 room ones.. so since 3-rm apartments were fully booked, we all assumed there wasnt any more rooms available ah!!! silly me, juz coz i didnt have the mood to make the enquiry call...
wanna know more abt the trip? will continue soon.. stay tuned! *wink*
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my malaysian uncle n family who's been working in brunei for the past 15 yrs, yes.. 15 YRS came over to visit. he's oredi 50 yrs old, hence he felt it was difficult for him to manuovre around even JB, wat more S'pore on his own. sooo me n family went over to my aunt's place dat i usually visit, to fetch them over on last Mon. he has 2 kids, first was a 15 yr old guy, whom i would consider a "nerd" ;), n a 13 yr old girl, whom i'd consider her a "streetsmart" person. watever it was, they made my house "noisy" n kecoh.. but i kinda like them ah.. except when they sleep late night.. coz i tot of making sure everyone's asleep b4 i shut off, so imagine having them up n talking on top of their voices while discussing over their crushes or bf/gf on the msn or something.. all dis at about 1.30am? luckily i had my darling to talk to after dat... n wat a conversation! *wink*
anyway, the past few days went like dis..
mon: woke up slightly late than usual. aftr cleaning house, left to Sheng Siong Woodlands. reached there at abt 1pm. bought stuffs for Laksa in the evening. topped up petrol from there, n headed for JB. reached there abt 2 plus. left JB abt 3 plus. reached home, prepared dinner, n ate at dining table "ramai2". then just lazed around till sleeping time.
tues: went Popular bookstore at Tiong Bahru Plaza in the late morning. uncle n family bought books for the kids n for themselves. i got myself "the ultimate Transformers" hardcover book abt my fav cartoon! then headed to Bras Basah after dat to get more books.. n ended up at Popular at dat branch! bought more books. drove up to Hjh Maimunah to buy dishes for the family. didnt eat there coz for the entire stay here, the daughter, Nurul, was fasting Syawal.. reached home just to solat, then i left to tampines to help my friend wif his gf's pc. then headed to Sembawang for a hari raye gathering wif the camp trailblazer ppl... then dropped kids at Sembawang MRT stn for their parents to fetch them. dropped my friends off at tampines n bedok reservoir b4 fetching my darling from wk.. it was our 1st mth anniversary n the day wouldnt be complete without meeting her for a while :)
wed: initially wanted to go visit my eldest uncle at Holland Close, but not at home. headed to Omni Theatre to catch show. my uncle n family watched 2 movies, me n family just caught the second one, "forces of nature" coz my mom needed to see family doc b4 dat. next, went to science centre exhibition.. n i really enjoyed it! wanted to go there again, mebe wif my sayang.. headed straight for home at 2.30pm. entire family tired, so we didnt go Sim Lim. had dinner at Cheese Prata Shop in the evening. drove thru orchard rd to see xmas lights, then went to changi beach to see planes.. only to have them soo far coz they're only close during landing, but it was take offs last night. uncle got held up by police in a road block routine checking on our way to the beach. stroke up conversation wif the policemen.. its funny i was talking to them like i know them.. when all the while i dont like police! hehehe reached home at 12 plus in morning.
thurs: finally went to my uncle's house. then dropped by Sim Lim Sq. my mom n dad rested in car while i brought them to the right shops. then headed straight to JB to my aunt's place. later on, uncle drove to Hotel Sri Malaysia where he n family will spend a few days there.. they didnt want to trouble my aunt. n my aunt oso not healthy enuff to be a good host to them... n now im home...!!
eyes wanna shut oredi.. good nite everybody!
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n alhamdulillah the more i know u, the more my love for u grows. ur understanding of my past n ur willingness to go thru life wif me makes me feel at ease n at peace, alhamdulillah. thanx for crossing my path too, for without Allah's blessing n ur presence, life for me may still be as rocky n uncertain as i was for the past few mths..
once again, thanx, sayang. May Allah continue His blessings for us till the end of time, insyaAllah.
bi bahibak da :)
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the days been bz wif festive visiting, as my parents didnt seem to end the visiting list! but the most important day was last fri, 26 Nov. we were at my neighbour's house at abt 10pm when i overheard my dad's conversation on his hp, n i, as usual, eavesdropped the conversation. it turned out my close cousin had a misunderstanding wif her dad, resulting in her dad chasing her out of the house. wat made me furious dat she was chased out juz coz she lost her entire bag containing her wallet, IC, other cards, house keys n her office clothes while she was jogging at yishun stadium.
it was my cousin's stubbornness dat led to the bag's disappearance. she assumed dat if she were to leave it on the grandstand like she'd done before, it wont be stolen. like as if there werent any lockers avaible for use. fortunately she was holding onto her hp as she ran. else, more problems would arise.
her father has long disliked her own daughter. imagine having a father who didnt want to send his own wife for medical checkup when she was bearing u in her wombs? n imagine dis.. how would u feel when ur own father gingerly offered ppl to buy her own daughter when she had just been born. n now when confronted, he denied being serious abt it!!! ok wait, we'll go to dat part later.
so when we left the neighbours house, we drove straight to woodlands to find out wat really happened. as we were reaching, her mom called to say we didnt need to come over coz its been settled. i reached the house, seeing my poor cousin, eyes swollen from crying buckets earlier. i pulled her to her room while my parents tried to cool her father down. i asked my cousin wat she felt at dat time. as expected, she felt like leaving at dat instant. bear in mind, she had oredi packed almost the entire belongings. soon after, my dad came in, n asked how she was. we decided to take her over to my house while things cooled down in a week. her dad could even say "u f*** off dis house" n refused to "salam"! my dad insisted n he gave way to let her daughter "salam" him.
lucky for us, there's a spare room for my cousin to use. to cut the whole story short, we called my dad's eldest bro coz her father said the only ppl dat can interfere would be my dad n his bro. we were furious coz he threatened her own wife on sunday morning by saying "kalau dia balik, tau lah ape aku nak buat". so we confronted her father dat night. it started out diplomatically, then the conversation got heated. i got involved coz he kept on blaming her daughter for not calling home to inform she wanted to go jogging. in other words, he accused her of lying behind his back, while we all know if my cousin were to call, he would definitely say no. i even raised my voice to get my point across as he kept on accusing me of disrespecting him, while at dat point of time i argued back saying "u said im disrespecting u, but did i use any vulgar word like u using at me now?" i was mad, really mad. crazier to see dat my cousins mom didnt even side her a single bit, kept staring at my cousin as if her husband's an angel! n when we shot at the father saying dat he likes to bad mouth our family, my aunt totally denied dat she conveyed those things to us, when in actual fact she was the one who complained to my parents abt the badmouthing! i hate it when we were there to help the mother from being a victim, but she protected the very person who abused her n the family, n not helping herself. i give up. i've lost respect to my own aunt whom i've been empathising but lost dat faith when she didnt want to stand up to her rights when we were there to back her up.
in short, we got my cousin to be accepted. but we warned them dat if my cousin were to be chased out again, we'll pick her up, send her to my cousin's place at bedok, n make a report to MCD n Syariah Court the very next day. all becoz the father feels disrespected when my cousin didnt share the same dining table, didnt talk to him, when he himself didnt show love n care to the entire family...
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